It tears us apart, the beat of my heart.

How essential has youtube become for the election cycle? Not blogs, not online newspapers, but video streamed to consumer, made by either corporations or individuals.

It's a decent question. I ask it only because online videos have done a very good job of tracking how I feel about Hillary Clinton during this campaign. The first was Tina Fey's Bitch is the New Black support speech for Hillary on Saturday Night Live. I've been an Obama supporter, and, generational arguments aside, I've never understood the appeal of Hillary. But that video, while not changing my support, at least explained some of it to me in a clever, short, emotional way.

How much have things changed from the Texas primary? It seems impossible for Hillary to win now. Her campaign is entirely focused around the idea of procedural hijacking that would make Florida 2000 look like a Student Council meeting. Mobilizing 'pledged' delegates, seating ghost delegates, increasingly "vast right-wing" conspiracy rhetoric on Obama's pastors and patriotism. And she wants to do this until August?

It's ghastly, and difficult for me to put into words. Worse, I can feel the Clinton Derangement Syndrome bubble up in me (I cheered when I read that link right there back when it was posted), which puts me in the awkward spot of asking - "Was Rush Limbaugh right about her all along?" Then I saw this video of "Pequena Hillary Clinton", which is making the rounds and giving me huge comfort:

This video captures how I feel about where the Clinton campaign has gone; a bizarre mix of terror, sadness and humor approachable only through the logic of dreamwork and Hillary Duff singles. It's like the 2008 Elections have now been crossed with a dream sequence from Twin Peaks (the dwarves are similarly cool and disturbing.)

Doesn't that video feel right? Let's take it apart. The sense of the enjoyment of feeling indifference the dwarf conveys is key for the analogy. One gets the feeling Hillary is more than comfortable making up stories about sniper attacks until the August convention in the same exact way that dwarf loves dancing on the desk and throwing papers around regardless of how uncomfortable it makes you (or bad it is for democracy/the desk). Pequena Hillary Clinton likes to ask for your vote with a bit of a smile, as if she delights in knowing how weirded out you are. One wonders if Real Hillary also knows she can't win, but is asking for your vote for similarly personal and malicious reasons. The dress is good too - it is similar but not too similar. One doesn't ask whether the dwarf is dressed as Hillary but why is Hillary dressing like that dwarf?

One looks at the campaign of what Tina Fey sees, and then looks at the "Don't worry donors, we can steal the thing at the convention" of what it has become, and wonders if they were always the same - in the same sense that one watches that video and thinks "my god, was Hillary Clinton actually a transexual dwarf speaking in broken English and dancing to Hillary Duff all along?"